Okay, so, It's been almost a week since Isak split with me.
I still don't feel anything.
Maybe this is a good thing, maybe not, but right now, I dunno what to think.
For a while I thought it was just shock and that I'd get overit soon enough and feel anger or sadness, but I still feel like "Yeah.. Whatever." so I guess that says a lot XD
Elliot said to me the other day "Sucks to be him, he's the one missing out."
I guess he must be right.
Yesterday Elliot added me as his "Other half" on Bebo, which was unexpected, and Dan // Spalding left me a comment. Granted, it made no sense, but oh well, for once it was him talking first, and today, after ignoring me for over a year, Toby added me on Facebook and MSN. also, Gaz added me as his "Other half" on Facebook, so two in as many days xD
I finish work on friday. CAN'T WAIT.
Showing posts with label Isak. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Isak. Show all posts
Tuesday, 11 August 2009
Tuesday, 30 June 2009
Jasmine
So um.. Yeah. This is Isak's ex. She's also his best friend.
He never stops talking about her ._.
I feel like I'm living in her shadow.
I don't mind, I'll ut up with it for him because he's the best thing that's ever happened to me, but sometimes it's like "ARGH". Like yesterday, I rang him, and he said that Jasmine'd told him I had commented on her Bilddagboken. He got all defensive saying "What did you say?" etc. I couldn't remember that particular comment, but it really put me out that he would seem so defensive over the fact I'd commented on hers, despite the fact she looked on mine first.
I have trust issues anyway, and she has another boyfriend who's friends with me and Isak independantly, but I'm so insecure and that, cause all I ever think about is "Does he really mean that? Why hasn't he rung me yet?" etc etc and it's not that I don't trust either of them, I just don't trust myself. I think I'm going to drive him away being so paranoid.
I tried to talk to him about a similar thing when I had issues about MY friend flirting with him, and he just said "1. She's not my type, she's a player. 2. I'm with you, if I wanted her instead I wouldn't be together with you". It makes sense, but that was someone he'd met twice, this is his best friend and I dunno if it's just because he's going to America tomorrow where he's in the same town as she is, and he's going to be with her for a whole month and I think he's going to do stuff or whatever, but it's like.. I don't want him to think I'm a crazy stalker ._.
He never stops talking about her ._.
I feel like I'm living in her shadow.
I don't mind, I'll ut up with it for him because he's the best thing that's ever happened to me, but sometimes it's like "ARGH". Like yesterday, I rang him, and he said that Jasmine'd told him I had commented on her Bilddagboken. He got all defensive saying "What did you say?" etc. I couldn't remember that particular comment, but it really put me out that he would seem so defensive over the fact I'd commented on hers, despite the fact she looked on mine first.
I have trust issues anyway, and she has another boyfriend who's friends with me and Isak independantly, but I'm so insecure and that, cause all I ever think about is "Does he really mean that? Why hasn't he rung me yet?" etc etc and it's not that I don't trust either of them, I just don't trust myself. I think I'm going to drive him away being so paranoid.
I tried to talk to him about a similar thing when I had issues about MY friend flirting with him, and he just said "1. She's not my type, she's a player. 2. I'm with you, if I wanted her instead I wouldn't be together with you". It makes sense, but that was someone he'd met twice, this is his best friend and I dunno if it's just because he's going to America tomorrow where he's in the same town as she is, and he's going to be with her for a whole month and I think he's going to do stuff or whatever, but it's like.. I don't want him to think I'm a crazy stalker ._.
Saturday, 27 June 2009
Thursday 25th June
Wow. Today was super.
I woke up at 7am, and was out the door by 8:30 to go to summer School just outside Vara. I was going to help my mum's friend Lotta who's an English teacher.
It was actually kinda fun, I thought it was going to be really boring, but I didn't want to say no 'cause that'd be mean xD
The kids there were really nice, I got on with all of them.
Then at 12:28 I got on the bus for the first time since finishing school and went up to Trollhättan. I never realized how boring it is, but seeing as most days I was practicaly unconsious through lack of sleep, I never noticed before now HAHA. It was swealtering on the bus, fucking terrible.
When I got to Trollhättan I met Isak (^^) and we dropped round to Karina's to get my boots, although she wasn't in. We walked up and down the high street for at least 30 minutes looking for a decent hairdressers for Isak X_X We also went into Kicks, Åhléns, Fairplay and Torget Kebab Shop to get chips ;D
After that we walked home, ate some fried pasta, and then watched TV with Zak. Isak decided to bleach his hair during this, and failed to comply with what I told him to do, which left him regretting he'd not done what I'd said (He bleached ALL of his hair instead of just the roots despite the fact I told him it'd fall out afterwards, and what did it do? Start to fall out afterwards).
Zak thought this was Hillarious.
All 3 of us then watched The Scooby Doo Movie 2, although most of this was spent talking, as no one was really interested in actually watching it, and just when everyone was getting ready to go to bed, Rune came up and told us all Michael Jackson was dead, to which Isak replied with a look of absolute shock, Zak carried on as normal, and I was like "..and?"
Isak spent the next 40 hours randomly saying "I don't believe that Michael Jackson is dead O_O" from nowhere. He even said it in his sleep at one point, although he could have been awake when he said it.
All in all, and proper awesome day (:
I woke up at 7am, and was out the door by 8:30 to go to summer School just outside Vara. I was going to help my mum's friend Lotta who's an English teacher.
It was actually kinda fun, I thought it was going to be really boring, but I didn't want to say no 'cause that'd be mean xD
The kids there were really nice, I got on with all of them.
Then at 12:28 I got on the bus for the first time since finishing school and went up to Trollhättan. I never realized how boring it is, but seeing as most days I was practicaly unconsious through lack of sleep, I never noticed before now HAHA. It was swealtering on the bus, fucking terrible.
When I got to Trollhättan I met Isak (^^) and we dropped round to Karina's to get my boots, although she wasn't in. We walked up and down the high street for at least 30 minutes looking for a decent hairdressers for Isak X_X We also went into Kicks, Åhléns, Fairplay and Torget Kebab Shop to get chips ;D
After that we walked home, ate some fried pasta, and then watched TV with Zak. Isak decided to bleach his hair during this, and failed to comply with what I told him to do, which left him regretting he'd not done what I'd said (He bleached ALL of his hair instead of just the roots despite the fact I told him it'd fall out afterwards, and what did it do? Start to fall out afterwards).
Zak thought this was Hillarious.
All 3 of us then watched The Scooby Doo Movie 2, although most of this was spent talking, as no one was really interested in actually watching it, and just when everyone was getting ready to go to bed, Rune came up and told us all Michael Jackson was dead, to which Isak replied with a look of absolute shock, Zak carried on as normal, and I was like "..and?"
Isak spent the next 40 hours randomly saying "I don't believe that Michael Jackson is dead O_O" from nowhere. He even said it in his sleep at one point, although he could have been awake when he said it.
All in all, and proper awesome day (:
Thursday, 11 June 2009
"Ninja Of Love"
Wow. Rain + Canal + Clothes = fun.
Trust me.
Yesterday me, Lindell and Isak decided it would be fun to go swimmin in the canal. In the rain. Fully clothed. Oh yes, it's true.
Aside from it being fucking freezeing, it was pretty damn fun.
And afterwards, Zakarias got to see Lindell in only wet underpants when he went looking for the phone in Zak's room hahaha. Qoute from Zak: "..What's with the gay shit?".
I got to stay at Isak's till long after Lindell left, watching "Mad TV", "Paris Hiltons BFF", "Mommy's Boy" and a movie called Blue something-or-other (I can't remember the whole name) which I'd seen before, but was still pretty good, until about 11pm when his dad got home and offered to drop me at my place.
All in all, a top notch day :)
Trust me.
Yesterday me, Lindell and Isak decided it would be fun to go swimmin in the canal. In the rain. Fully clothed. Oh yes, it's true.
Aside from it being fucking freezeing, it was pretty damn fun.
And afterwards, Zakarias got to see Lindell in only wet underpants when he went looking for the phone in Zak's room hahaha. Qoute from Zak: "..What's with the gay shit?".
I got to stay at Isak's till long after Lindell left, watching "Mad TV", "Paris Hiltons BFF", "Mommy's Boy" and a movie called Blue something-or-other (I can't remember the whole name) which I'd seen before, but was still pretty good, until about 11pm when his dad got home and offered to drop me at my place.
All in all, a top notch day :)
Sunday, 7 June 2009
This weekend
This weekend was amazing.
On saturday I went to Isak's. We made pie ;D TWO pies. It wasn't great pie, but it was fun making it in any case xD And going down to ICA to buy filling was fun too.
Shoulda let me carry the bag love ^^
Aaaaaaaand today Isak came here after work :P
Was way cool. We watched the Spongebob Movie (I can't believe he hadn't seen it before?!) and talked about who in the world would think about frying pie. (He did. Apparently.) Haha <3
And then we watched some of the 10th season of The Simpsons.
Legend (Y)
On saturday I went to Isak's. We made pie ;D TWO pies. It wasn't great pie, but it was fun making it in any case xD And going down to ICA to buy filling was fun too.
Shoulda let me carry the bag love ^^
Aaaaaaaand today Isak came here after work :P
Was way cool. We watched the Spongebob Movie (I can't believe he hadn't seen it before?!) and talked about who in the world would think about frying pie. (He did. Apparently.) Haha <3
And then we watched some of the 10th season of The Simpsons.
Legend (Y)
Friday, 15 May 2009
Part of the queue
Long time no speak.
Not a lot's happened recently. The last three days after school I've met up with Isak, and it's been really really fun. I mean, this guy is amazing. There's no words to describe it.
We had theme week as well, althought it was only 3 days but oh well haha. On tuesday I got to watch Karina die at the gym, "Friskis och Svettis", which was quite funny, and Andreas managed to end up on the floor with one of those gym bikes on top of him in front of everyone, which was hilarious. He then went on to say the next day that Florida was a country, so he's been having a good week.
I got some things in the post today and yesterday too, which was quite unexpected. I got a DVD ("The Lee Evans XL tour") and three books ("Sid Vicious; No one is innocent", "Rock'n'Roll star" & "My booky wook") so I can't wait to start reading/watching them.
xo
Not a lot's happened recently. The last three days after school I've met up with Isak, and it's been really really fun. I mean, this guy is amazing. There's no words to describe it.
We had theme week as well, althought it was only 3 days but oh well haha. On tuesday I got to watch Karina die at the gym, "Friskis och Svettis", which was quite funny, and Andreas managed to end up on the floor with one of those gym bikes on top of him in front of everyone, which was hilarious. He then went on to say the next day that Florida was a country, so he's been having a good week.
I got some things in the post today and yesterday too, which was quite unexpected. I got a DVD ("The Lee Evans XL tour") and three books ("Sid Vicious; No one is innocent", "Rock'n'Roll star" & "My booky wook") so I can't wait to start reading/watching them.
xo
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